Rabbit Trails

I posted the other day in my random ass post about re-watching some documentaries that I watched when i was first diagnosed as being bipolar. I was thinking of doing a post regarding being bipolar and my experiences with it; however I am not. This entire blog is that exact thing. My experiences with my mental health issues. So, I was going to start a post about how people with bipolar disorder are truly handicapped in the workforce.

While I was researching this topic I stumbled upon something completely different.

Now, it is true that people with bipolar disorder have it a little more rough in the workforce:

…a study funded by the National Institutes of Health’s (NIH) National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) has found. Each U.S. worker with bipolar disorder averaged 65.5 lost workdays in a year…


There was another site that offered all kinds of facts and numbers, but they summed it up with:

The studies found in the literature search focused on work impairment expressed as long-term unemployment, occupational functioning, absenteeism because of emotional problems and somatic complaints, and poor work performance. Each of the parameters was observed more often among patients with bipolar disorder, even when compared with people with other types of mental illness.

I wanted to couple this information in with the fact that people may also have issues with their emotional IQ and their Empathy Quotient that may factor in with their mental health issues, and by reviewing my own EIQ and EQ, I stumbled onto something that kind of has me worried.

Before we get to that part:

Emotional intelligence (EI) or emotional quotient (EQ) is the capacity of individuals to recognize their own, and other people’s emotions, to discriminate between different feelings and label them appropriately, and to use emotional information to guide thinking and behavior…Studies have shown that people with high EI have greater mental health, job performance, and leadership skills…



Emotional intelligence is the ability to identify and manage your own emotions and the emotions of others. It is generally said to include 3 skills:

1. Emotional awareness, including the ability to identify your own emotions and those of others;

2. The ability to harness emotions and apply them to tasks like thinking and problems solving;

3. The ability to manage emotions, including the ability to regulate your own emotions, and the ability to cheer up or calm down another person.



Your Empathy Quotient is a bit different:

The Empathy Quotient, often abbreviated as EQ is a psychological self-assessment questionnaire measuring empathy levels in an individual. Its predominate clinical use is as a screening tool for Autism Spectrum Disorders in adults


If you want to take the test and evaluate yourself; then just go here .

When I re-took the emotional-IQ and did the evaluation for the EQ, I kind of expected below average results; however I didn’t expect for my Emotional IQ to be a 68 which is fairly low and my Empathy Quotient to be a 21 (which is common with people with Asperger’s or Autism).

So, now that I see these numbers, I am starting to wonder: Was I misdiagnosed 9 years ago? Do I have Asperger’s and not bipolar disorder? Or maybe I have both?

Now I am sitting here and wondering how do I get tested? What if I do have Asperger’s?

I have made a list and I will be talking to my therapist about this in our next session and see where we need to go with it. If I need to I have my first appointment with my shrink’s PA that takes my insurance coming up and I can talk to him about it then, too.

Until then, I will just be here. Descending further into madness.





  1. kcarr642 · March 27, 2016

    This was so informative, and so well written. My friend who’s a youth care counsellor was trying to explain EI and EQ to me a little while ago, and this really helped. I hope you find the answers you’re looking for soon that that things become easier.


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